An Itsy Bitsy Planner

Jaime and I were talking today about how Emilia still hasnt' made any progress in coming out and I told Jaime that I think E just has a date written in her little dayplanner and she isn't going to be swayed. I've tried bribing her with new dresses, I've tried smoking her out with spicy foods, and I've tried walking her out; but she won't have any of it! Jaime joked that she was going to purchase an itsy bitsy little planner as a gift and that got me thinking.

Today I've been daydreaming about what kind of person she'll be. Will she grow up to be completely crazy organized like me? Or will she take after her daddy and be at the complete other end of the spectrum? What type of personality will she have- bubbly and friendly or quiet and reserved? Will she like sports, music, art? Whose features will she have? I hope for Jason's eyes (and his perfect vision!), his immune system and cute little button nose. Those things are, obviously, just for fun to think about. I'll be completely happy with whatever features she gets...even if it means the bright red hair I was born with! (O:

I can't wait to teach her colors, shapes, animals and so much more! Watch her learn how to crawl, walk and run! We will teach her to share and always be friendly and nice. I want her to learn to stand up for what she knows is right and I hope she gets our strong wills.

I pray everyday that God will give us the wisdom and courage to raise her according to His will. I want her to grow up in a loving home, where she sees God's unconditional love mirrored in how we treat each other everyday. I'm so excited to get to be a mommy, but I'm also scared. I know I can't do it alone- I need to daily call upon God. I know God has entrusted us with this most perfect of gifts because He knows we can do it. I really hope I don't let Him down.